Whispers of a storm

The Break!

2005-08-25T23:23:51Z

You sat me down to listen to the words you had to say
I felt the tears swell inside but I just shut them all away
Could you ever love me again I say
you just look down and look away
nothing left to say.....

So now I am left so depressed
I can't stop being such a mess
I stare at the phone waiting for you to call
Do I even cross your mind at all

I thought if I gave you space
you may come running back this way
But its been so lonly and long
I keep rewinding that same damn song

So now I am left so depressed
I can't stop being such a mess
I stare at the phone waiting for you to call
Do I even cross your mind at all

So now I give myself over and over again
Searching for a lover in a friend
But its the same old story that never ends
Laughing through the tears I play prentend

So now I am left so depressed
I can't stop being such a mess
I stare at the phone waiting for you to call
Do I even cross your mind at all

teckno_siren @ 2005-05-24T19:53:00

2005-05-25T03:20:01Z

I see myself .... such and odd stranger
your eyes are so cold and your whipsers burn me inside.

Staring at the reflections of who I once was and where I once stood

I can feel myself fade deep inside my own mind....

Falling forever the weightlessness of it all....

I feel trapped by a world I never wanted to know

I can hear my voice calling me back to the innocence I once knew

How can I ignore the tears and screams pulling my heart down

the sickeness of it all

I try to shut my eyes as if to close the doorways forever

the glimps of it all wrenching in my mouth like poison

the sting of decaying honey dripping from all there lying lips

I find myself drifting twards the storm....

chaotic the screams in my head.....

Why have you left me to fend the battles on my own?
Where are you to take me in your arms ... I was your child ?
the cuts still bleeding from there strapps...
Couldn't you hear me calling
didn't you care I was screaming?

My hands are weak from fighting
My eyes burn from all the tears

Was I nothing have I ever been anything at all

Too odd to be pure and to pure to be odd

Some burden born like a wretched disease

Have I infected your life
Have I distraced your voice

could you ever love me
Could you ever want me
Could you ever forgive
the mistake I have made

I see her face

2004-11-19T12:21:37Z

and I see her laughter and glares and I remember my words to live by when it comes to her

I could be mean, I could be angry
you know i could be just like you
I could be fake, I could be stupid
you know i could be just like you
I could be cold, I could be ruthless
you know i could be just like you
I could be weak, I could be senseless
you know i could be just like you
I could be mean, i could be angry
you know i could be just like you
On my own, cause I can't take livin' with you
I'm alone, So I won't turn out like you want me to
You thought you were standing beside me
you were only in my way
you're wrong if you think that i'll be just like you

and yes that is taken from one of my new favorite songs

And I

2004-09-12T21:36:30Z

I finally opened my eyes
I finally can see through all my lies
took so long to look in the mirror
took so long to admit to all my fears

And I
lay awake in my bed
I look through all the memories I shed
And I
Don't want to be
All alone with in me

You took all the pain I had to give
you took all the shit I had lived
you took all the tainted turns
you took all I could never learn
you extended your heart out to me
All I did was bite the hand that feeds

And I
lay awake in my bed
I look through all the memories I shed
And I
Don't want to be
All alone with in me

I painted my eyes black just not to see
afraid of what is staring back at me
didn't want to stop pretending
This was all I could ever need

I gave it all away
the life I had with you
Just so I could say
I had no one I belongd to
Now I lost in vein
the one I had to come home to

And I
lay awake in my bed
I look through all the memories I shed
And I
Don't want to be
All alone with in me

lost knowing what I missed
lost lingering in my poisoned kiss
wish I could take back
they way I made you feel like this

you used to taste so clean
now your nothing more
than a frozen dream

And I
lay awake in my bed
I look through all the memories I shed
And I
Don't want to be
All alone with in me

teckno_siren @ 2004-05-31T20:02:00

2004-06-01T03:15:38Z

you set my body a fire
an infernal of sins
this eternal flame that burns
with desires of your name

you've brokan down my will
And all I am has frozen still
now I wait till you come for me
and feel me trembling all for you

my body to embrace
and hold with softness and grace
with my heart to ensure
with my history so insecure

just feel me and kiss me
my everything I'm willing
to give into you

whispers in the night
I stare and cry
into my own lonly eyes
afraid of your good byes

just feel me
trembling before you

teckno_siren @ 2004-05-31T19:37:00

2004-06-01T03:02:04Z

Why you had to go alone
is something I can't learn to understand

Why you still haunt my dreams
and I can feel the darkness linger in my screams

My tears remain with me help less on the floor
and I can't deny the pain anymore

Will my dreams every be empty
with your arms free of me

I hold back the anger of what I've been through
And I scream as I blame you

Still none of this self abuse will get me through
and I live so numb and empty for you

will you ever know what its like
to say your sorry for the past

my love is vengeance for the pain
and I promised to stay if you'd go away

the power and the rush
my dignity you had to crush

and the rage with in
Denial of our own sins

Fear the mirrors of your true face
the simplest things you can't replace

my blood on your hands won't just wash away

and your betrayal echo all the sounds
of all the secrets yet to be found.

kisses to E

2004-06-01T00:22:02Z

jay

What Dogma character are you?
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memories of heart ache

2004-06-01T00:03:52Z

SHAKESPEAR'S SISTER

STAY - 22/02/1992
8 weeks at #1 - 16 weeks on chart

If this world is wearing thin
And you're thinking of escape
I'll go anywhere with you
Just wrap me up in chains
But if you try to go alone
Don't think I'll understand

Stay with me
Stay with me

In the silence of your room
In the darkness of your dreams
You must only think of me
There can be no in between
When your pride is on the floor
I'll make you beg for more

Stay with me
Stay with me

You'd better hope and pray
That you make it safe
Back to your own world
You'd better hope and pray
That you'll wake one day
In your own world
Coz when you sleep at night
They don't hear your cries
In your own world
Only time will tell
If you can break the spell
Back in your own world

Stay with me
Stay with me
Stay, stay with me
Stay, stay, stay, stay, stay
Stay with me

I woke up thinking of you

2004-05-09T16:59:51Z

and then I had to run and listen to this

You Bring The Freak Out
by Jermaine Dupri

[chorus][kandi]
you make me talk nasty nasty to ya
dream about how i wanna do ya
think things to think about you bring it out
you show me how to use my tongue
you just so yum yum tasty tasy
and when you take me and take me you bring the freak out in me

[da brat]
i'm freaky freaky
gimme head head
i wanna see how you get down, go down, go down and get fed
come 'n get some tasty tasy
lick each 'n every individual part and make me, make me
come come a chameleon
see a different position to do something different to the yum yum
jump jump on top of the kitchen cabinet
so you can stick it 'n pump pump
miss harris waiting for whatever i feel like having
save you some embrassment
i'm an aries 'n i ain't scared of shit
dare to flinch then 'n there i'll make your chest hairs lift

[chorus]

[jermaine]
Only you do ah, ah
think about this n try try
to kiss all the places
missed by the basic lovin' up your guy-ah
ride in the park in the broad daylight
real hard like we the only ones around
back of the car, tearing u apart
'n this how shit be goin' down
when i pump you say harder harder
love it when i bring my camcorder
whipped cream, take everything
even when we first got started started
from the bedroom to the dancefloor
to a slow tune up against the door
to the up 'n down, to the in 'n out
to the way you sound

[chorus]

[kandi] (jermainei)
are you gonna fuck me?
(you think i'm not?)
come on baby
(i'm cumin)
lets fuck
(i love it when you talk like that)
yeh yeh whatever, go down there
(show me how to use my tongue)
i want you to put your tongue right here
(talk to me!)
right there on there yeh

[da brat]
i'm a superfreak i do what you need
i'm a slave for you, stay craving you
i'm available, i'm unfadable
and i'm capable to disable you
i break you down, blow out your pipe
turn out your lights and leave your wife
lay me down on my back but don't let my timberlands clap
hit it up like its wimbeldon
don't spare a racquet 'cause brat freaky like that
just once taste of the nipple
and two kisses will leave you crippled
you done fell in love with shantizzle
and i'ma keep you fiending for mizzo
the 6-0 six-fo bizzo
got one of the freakiest hizzo's

[Chorus] x2

Again

2004-04-06T21:02:25Z

Just a little medicated again
while you tie me to the fucking bed again
stick your needles in my brain again

you deny my screams again
while you lie through fucking teethe again
Holding me down again
numbing the sounds again

I lie awake watching the walls again
I tried to escape from it all again
I taste my blood on my teethe again
I feel the sting of your fist again

and I feel so numb again
I can's stop it all again
over and over again

Just a little medicated again
while you tie me to the fucking bed again
stick your needles in my brain again

Just to be your precious something again
just so you can say I'm normal again
Just so you can wash away the stains again

you deny my screams again
while you lie through fucking teethe again
Holding me down again
numbing the sounds again

Your hands are in my hair again
you face in my dreams again
I taste you in my tears again
I'm curled up in my corner again

and I feel so numb again
I can's stop it all again
over and over again

Dedicated to Casey

it means something

2004-04-05T21:23:53Z

I like your pants around your feet
I like the dirt that's on your knees
And I like the way you still say please
While you're looking up at me
You're like my favourite damn disease

And I love the places that we go
And I love the people that you know
And I love the way you can't say no
Too many long lines in a row
I love the powder on your nose

Ooooh
And now I know who you are
It wasn't that hard
Just to figure you out
And now I know who you are
It wasn't that hard
Just to figure you out

I like the freckles on your chest
And I like the way you like me best
And I like the way you're not impressed,
While you put me to the test
I like the wine stains on your dress

And I love the way you pass the check
And I love the good times that you wreck
And I love your lack of self respect
While you're passed out on the deck
I love my hands around your neck

And now I know who you are
It wasn't that hard
Just to figure you out
And now I know who you are
It wasn't that hard
Just to figure you out

I love your pants around your feet
And I love the dirt that's on your knees
And I like the way you still say please
While you're looking up at me
You're like my favourite damn disease

And I hate the places that we go
And I hate the people that you know
And I hate the way you can't say no
Too many long lines in a row
I hate the powder on your nose

And now I know who you are
It wasn't that hard
Just to figure you out
And now I know who you are
It wasn't that hard
Just to figure you out

nickleback___figured you out

Smirk

2004-02-10T23:00:41Z

My Funny Valentine by themadblonde
Your Nom
What type of Valentine are you?	Funny
How many Valentines will you receive?	70
What will be your Valentine treat?	Heart shaped box of chocolates
Who secretly wants to be your Valentine?	Gwynneth Paltrow

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wow

2003-12-25T10:59:56Z

Journal Name	How bad does it suck?
	You're going to go post this in your journal. Along with the dozen other memes and quizzes you've posted today, and will post tomorrow. You fucking whore.

Take the meme at t3knomeme

it's a girl

2003-12-25T10:49:31Z

Dreams and seduction

2003-12-25T10:43:13Z

So there I was standing against the wall when I saw him staring strait at me
I could feel his stare burn me deep inside
And when he walked up to me I could have died
He looked me in the eyes and brushed his hand down my cheek
There were no words just his silent stare
Hypnotizing me
I could feel my body overwhelmed with desire
He so slightly touched my lips with his fingers
My body shivered with want with desire
He leaned in and let his breath run down my neck
His mouth warm and soft as his hands slowly moved down my sides
There a perfect stranger was seducing me
My head was spinning out of control
I knew I should have been telling him no
This was not me this was not right
It was like nothing around me even existed anymore
The bar grew quite in my mind
I didn't even seem to care if anyone saw what was happening

He then took my hand and pulled me towards the door
I was not out in the cold airs night with this strange man
Why wasn't I stopping him?
Where were we going and why was I following him.
I hadn't even heard him speak
Some how I didn't even seem to care
All my sensibility had vanished
I found myself next in a park that was located not to far away from the bar.
He just turned and stared in my eyes once again
His stare it was like a drug
Numbing every fiber in me to resist him
I could feel my mouth start to moisten
My lips slightly parting as I sighed
He was once again caressing my face and my lips with his fingers
Then he leaned down and slightly whispered in my ear
" Do you want me to let you go? Do you want me to stop this? You can stop this if you like." I couldn't even speak. I could feel my leggs starting to weaken. Then he slowly moved around me.
Standing behind me now caressing my shoulders. He moved my hair and softly kissed my neck. Once again whispering those words in my ear. Then he said " my name I will give you if you ask but it is not your name I desire. Your name is not what draws me to you." His voice was soft and sweet yet commanding in one. It was not like those voices that are both sweet and week or strong and bastardly. It was perfect and he was perfect.
Was I drunk did someone slip me something.
He was still kissing my neck when I could feel his teeth. He slightly bit just enough to inflict a desirable amount of pain. Then he spun me around and pulled me into him. He kissed me and I almost fell. I could instantly feel my want for him. I have never wanted and desired till now.
All I could feel was he around me and I was willing to just enjoy myself.
He pulled me to the ground with him and slowly kissed down my neck. I could feel his weight on me giving me the warmth I needed in the cold night.
I felt so secure and that I could do anything at that moment.
Could some one really already have you on the verge of Cumming just by whispering in your ear?
I had never felt this and I wanted more.
I closed my eyes just enjoying his mouth upon my stomach and then down to my hip.
Still warming me with his breath body and caress.
It was as if he knew my body already. He slowly ran his tongue across my stomach and onto my hip and then grabbed my thighs and gave them a slight squeeze as he pushed them apart. His mouth was teasing me as he was kissing and licking yet never really touching my center.
I need this I needed someone to be slow and passionate yet in control like this.
I need someone who wouldn't let me pull away who wouldn't let me stop my self from feeling the pleasure fully. I could feel my whole body trembling and I couldn't control it. I wanted to sit strait up and pull myself away but he held me there clenching my thighs holding them apart even when I tried to close them
I didn't even know his name and I didn't care. How could this stranger be able to fulfill my sexual desires when no man I have ever been with could ever come close? I opened my eyes to stare at his face and then............
Well then I realized I was awake. I was almost sad knowing that it wasn't real.

Someday

2003-12-23T14:14:15Z

Someday Someday
maybe my clouds can disappear
Someday Someday
maybe through this storm I will ride
Someday Someday
maybe we will have no need for goodbyes
Someday Someday
I will be able to dry my eyes

And those winds how they blow
and those storms how they grow
and those tides how they role
and those eyes how they burn the soul

Someday Someday
maybe my clouds can disappear
Someday Someday
maybe through this storm I will ride
Someday Someday
maybe we will have no need for goodbyes
Someday Someday
I will be able to dry my eyes

and all those dreams burned up in smoke
and all those lies how well they spoke
and all those wounds how they bleed
and all those whispers how they screamed

Someday Someday
maybe my clouds can disappear
Someday Someday
maybe through this storm I will ride
Someday Someday
maybe we will have no need for goodbyes
Someday Someday
I will be able to dry my eyes

you know nothing comes close to you
You know nothing ever felt so true
You know nothing was left we could do
You know nothing felt so blue

Someday Someday
maybe my clouds can disappear
Someday someday
maybe through this storm I will ride
Someday Someday
maybe we will have no need for goodbyes
Someday Someday
I will be able to dry my eyes

Here oh we could of tried
here oh our love didn't die
here oh the need is still alive
here oh twisting deep inside

Someday Someday
maybe my clouds can disappear
Someday someday
maybe through this storm I will ride
Someday Someday
maybe we will have no need for goodbyes
Someday Someday
I will be able to dry my eyes

time

2003-12-23T13:55:40Z

Sometimes I look back and remember your face
Sometimes I wonder how we came to such a place
your laughter stolen and replaced
Such anger taken much higher stakes

Your secrets surfaced from deep inside
your pain forced to become mine
confusion of the future and love denied
silent tears I couldn't of cried

Your listening to the words I say
Staring at me to see if I'm okay
wishing for a chance to make me stay
listening to storms so gray
watching our love decay
quickly like all those pictures fade

Denial and fingers point to betrayal
lies threats abusive love defiled
the truth burns in the eyes of a child

Confusion of the way we pretend
secrets I learned to shed
Whispers of tears I sent
no one knows what time could mend

dreams just dreams

2003-12-15T13:13:57Z

I close my eyes
and think of they way you last touched me.
Longing for your hands
to press against my stomach
and your lips
to kiss my temple
and your breath
To warm my neck.
Your touch soft and slow
Tracing my face and teasing my senses
Your whispers taunt my body as I try to hold back
Try to resist any form of pleasure
Still you do not let me hold back
Your mouth moist against mine
And your breath upon me
I can feel your weight upon me
I can taste you on my lips
Your grasp on my wrist holding me still
Not allowing me to pull away
Your body warming mine
As I shiver form the nights air
To touch me
To please me
Is all you ask
Still I try and resist you
My heart beating just from your kiss

I want to dream of you some more
I want to long for your kiss some more
Seduction is such a wonderful craving

touch me

2003-12-11T15:52:27Z

the way you always do , embrace me the way you always do . I want to feel my breath pushed out with the gasp and sigh you create from your soft caress. I want to feel my body shiver from your breath I want to feel your weight on me as I lay warm and covered by you

can you touch me as if it was the first and last time all at once
will you touch me as if my desire is burning with yours like water quenching your thirst.

can you , will you ........

was it just a whisper , a secret, a dream

( I hate ) Everythign about you

2003-11-26T00:16:06Z

everytime we lie awake
after every hit we take
every feeling that i get
but i haven't missed you yet
every room-mate kept awake
by every sigh and scream we make
all the feelings that i get
but i still don't miss you yet

only when i stop to think about it

i hate everything about you
why do i love you
i hate everything about you
why do i love you

everytime we lie awake
after every hit we take
every feeling that i get
but i haven't missed you yet

only when i stop to think about it

i hate everything about you
why do i love you
i hate everything about you
why do i love you

only when i stop to think about you,
i know
only when you stop to think about me,
do you know

i hate everything about you
why do i love you
you hate everything about me
why do you love me

i hate
you hate
i hate
you love me

i hate everything about you
why do i love you

By Three Days Grace

How did I not know this was sugarcult!

2003-11-18T11:16:58Z

Pretty Girl

pretty girl is suffering while he confesses everything.
pretty soon she'll figure out what his intentions were about.
and that's what you get for falling again;
you can never get him out of your head.
and that's what you get for falling again;
you can never get him out of your head.

it's the way that he makes you feel.
it's the way that he kisses you.
it's the way that he makes you fall in love.

she's beautiful as usual with bruises on her ego and
the killer instinct tells her to be aware of evil men.
and that's what you get for falling again;
you can never get him out of your head.
and that's what you get for falling again;
you can never get him out of your head.

it's the way that he makes you feel.
it's the way that he kisses you.
it's the way that he makes you fall in love. [2x]

pretty girl... pretty girl...

pretty girl is suffering while he confesses everything.
pretty soon she'll figure out: you can never get him out of your head.

it's the way that he makes you cry.
it's the way that he's in your mind.
it's the way that he makes you fall in love.
it's the way that he makes you feel.
it's the way that he kisses you.
it's the way that he makes you fall in love...

Some memories are just to painful

2003-11-09T21:58:51Z

SOMEDAY

How the hell did we wind up like this
Why weren't we able
To see the signs that we missed
And try to turn the tables

I wish you'd unclench your fists
And unpack your suitcase
Lately there's been too much of this
Dont think its too late

Nothin's wrong
just as long as
you know that someday I will

Someday, somehow
gonna make it allright but not right now
I know you're wondering when
(You're the only one who knows that)
Someday, somehow
gonna make it allright but not right now
I know you're wondering when

Well i hoped that since we're here anyway
We could end up saying
Things we've always needed to say
So we could end up stringing
Now the story's played out like this
Just like a paperback novel
Lets rewrite an ending that fits
Instead of a hollywood horror

Nothin's wrong
just as long as
you know that someday I will

Someday, somehow
gonna make it allright but not right now
I know you're wondering when
(You're the only one who knows that)
Someday, somehow
gonna make it allright but not right now
I know you're wondering when
(You're the only one who knows that)

[Solo]

How the hell did we wind up like this
Why weren't we able
To see the signs that we missed
And try to turn the tables
Now the story's played out like this
Just like a paperback novel
Lets rewrite an ending that fits
Instead of a hollywood horror

Nothin's wrong
just as long as
you know that someday I will

Someday, somehow
gonna make it allright but not right now
I know you're wondering when
(You're the only one who knows that)
Someday, somehow
gonna make it allright but not right now
I know you're wondering when
(You're the only one who knows that)
I know you're wondering when
(You're the only one who knows that)
I know you're wondering when

BY Nickelback

Cool On Your Island

2003-11-05T20:55:35Z

If you don't treat me better
Baby I'll just run away
Baby I don't know what drives you
To play all these silly games
C'mon baby
I'm much stronger than you know
Sometimes
I'm not afraid to let it show

When will you wake up
I want you more than the stars and the sun
But I can take only so much
Cool on your island
Is it cool on your island

I gotta brand new dress babe
Could it make you wanna try
I guess I didn't want to notice
The stars gone from your eyes
C'mon baby
I'm much stronger than you know
Sometimes
I'm not afraid to let it show

When will you wake up
I want you more than the stars and the sun
But I can take only so much
Cool on your island
Is it cool on your island

We could buy an airplane
Build a home in the sand
You could tell your secrets
I could understand
But then by the morning
Comes crumblin' down
And as your leavin'
Wait

When will you wake up
I want you more than the stars and the sun
But I can take only so much
Cool on your island
Is it cool, baby
When will you wake up
I want you more than the stars and the sun
But I can take only so much
Cool on your island
You're so cool on your island
Is it cool on your island
Is it cool baby

If you don't treat me better
Baby I'll just run away
Cool on your island
If you don't treat me
One day you'll wake up cold
Yeah, then you'll know
You'll know
You'll know
You love me

Tori Amos

~~

2003-10-22T19:51:06Z

When will all my clouds disappear
Where will it lead me in all my years
When will I stand against all my tears

With to much pain inside this hole
With something dying inside my soul
I can feel my heart grow so cold

Does the taste of it all satisfy
They can't Say I never tried
Even after I said goodbye

All the dreams I hid inside
All the whispers of my mind
All the secrets in my eyes

Will it leave me with no love in my soul
Will it leave me empty and so cold
Will it leave me to stand alone

Whispering Winds

2003-10-10T07:46:45Z

I hear them whisper your name,
those mighty winds that blow.
I know that you are close at hand,
the winds just told me so.

The direction from whence they blew,
I am not sure I know.
For only when I hear your name,
am I sure the winds did blow.

Caressing my face with a whisper ...
calling out your name,
the winds of delight entice me.
I will never be the same.

I will follow the singing wind.
where it leads me I do not know.
For the winds that blew you from me ...
will take me where I must go.

Upward into the hills,
calmly across the sea,
Hold on my love, I'm coming ...
The wind has beckoned me.

Free to wander and search this earth,
no matter how far that may be.
Free to follow the whispering wind ...
until it blows me back to thee.

I hear your laughter on the wind.
I try with all my might,
to reach out and touch you
on this windy night.

You must be getting closer
for I feel your whispered love.
I reach out my hand to you,
please find me, my sweet dove.

You grasp my hand in yours
and softly speak my name,
out of the whispering winds
We are together again.

by Marge Tindal